Melancholy

 

Cried for no reason yesterday so I tried to express how I felt and this was the result. Not sure if the animation makes sense but it helped me calm down. Glad I was able to channel my emotions again this time. 😃

Yay :D

A little happy entry for today. :)

Feels weird I'm working for an anim studio without any visual arts degree so I'm trying to catch up by enrolling in workshops. I got lucky and got a 100% scholarship for a two month animation course. :D Workshops like it are usually expensive so I'm so glad I didn't have to shell out for an education this time. ;u; And it's online too so I work right after.. a long nap xD

Online classes are weird. Last Saturday was supposed to be our last day but it kinda felt empty without any culminating activity or small gathering to celebrate it so I made a thing to channel my emotions haha. (I think I finally know how to)

 

Anyway, here are some of my faves from the activies we had

And this was my submission for our finals haha crunching a 15 second thing from boards to anim in a month was quite exhausting. Would have been more chill if I didn't have work but gosh I couldn't believe I made this. uhuhu

I also like the roughs for this :) I really really like the appeal of sketchy, wip line work.

Maybe I'll push to post doodly animation here after all.

*BREATHES*

Oh my god.
Hello.
It's been 4 years! I completely forgot about this blog. Then I remember my initial purpose for this page was a dump for daily animations. 🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡 I can't even draw daily, what more animate something everyday??! HAHA. But, I've been trying to learn how to animate when the mood kicks in and here are some stuff made this year.

this bouncy ball was a warm up before I came up with this girly doodle

14 year old me would have been so proud even if it's just a simple thingy haha

Oh this one was done around October last year. I tried to study how timing charts work in this exercise haha

My hair tends to frizz when I'm really stressed and I was super frustrated one day, I had to draw something to vent.

This one's more like an animatic? I made an OC and I really had to draw this to get it off my head. Obviously it's based on Ranni. I really loved that bby.

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Anyway, life update~ I'm alive, still! Though. I'm not sure I can say I'm doing so much better. I mean, I'm working with the most brilliant and awesome people in the industry, heck, might be the studio of my dreams, yet I'm still very neurotic. But at least I learned to be more aware of my mental state now. I know when I'm tired so I know I have to rest. Problem is, there's this certain tiredness that kicks in that not even the weekend or a vacation could fix. I admit, I'm just running on auto pilot recently and I really REALLY hate it. I can't think properly. My decisions are so poor and my brain's so slow. But then again, my workmates are so supportive. We just nervously laugh things off when things go wrong. Then I rant at my not-so-anon twt acct. Then delete when I'm calmer. I have friends to vent to but I'm pretty scared I'm just causing them more distress. Despite all that, I also learned to forgive myself when I make some mistakes but it still makes me cry and feel nervous every time. I just try not to beat myself up too hard. Hehe I have the guts to say this all cause this blog is pretty much dead. I do keep a journal but like, it kinda feels more comforting to shout this out at a not-so-voidy-void.

ALSO, HECK IT MAKES ME SAD THE FLASH DOLL I KEEP AT THE SIDE OF THIS BLOG IS GONE NOW. Q ___ Q I don't even remember its name, I can't google to look for it. huhu rip flash. Ok that reminds me, I wonder if the flash dress-up dolls on devvyart is still alive?

AW NO. IT'S DEAD AS WELL!!!! TT___________TT It's just an image now. :( I don't have a copy of the raw file anymore. Damn I should have downloaded before flash died. :)) haha oh well. Good night, my sweet digital dolls. xD

Ok I guess that's it for today. I do hope you guys are doing well. If not, hope you can chase good times!